a silent prayer for the strangers

At last December is here.. My annual leave started officially today. And i just realised, its gonna be the end of 2009.
And my ward manager owe me a PH for Deepavali. WTH. I should approach her then.

Anyway, like i mentioned in my previous entry, my days of lectures will clashed with my trip. Morever now, i am half hearted going for my uncle's wedding in Negeri Sembilan. Emmm..

Few days ago, i saw the advertisement for the teater "Natrah" .......... oh man... haiz... And, Umie Aida is looking so similar like Che Aminah right.. :))



This morning, i woke up as per normally. But the first thing that appeared on my mind was a patient of mine whom i have been caring for few minths. Who was chronicaly ill. He was diagnoised with cancer of stomach and the cancer cells invaded his spine. That explains why he is always resting on bed and not walking around. :(
It sounded strange to you guys maybe, thinking, why on earth am i talking about him. It was strange to myself too that, how on earth this man appeared in my mind the moment i woke up.
Slowly i began to sit down and think about his faithful wife whom i spoken to yesterday. She appeared to be strong but inside, i believe only the almighty knows it well. He has 3 daughters and few days ago, i managed to strike a conversation with one of his daughter who is in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Doing Early childhood. I was saying to him " wow, you daughter is doing good" He replied me with a simple smile.
Back to the this morning, i began to think.. why am i thinking about him. And i didnt realised my mind would went too far, thinking about his family. I was thinking, if ever i am in hir daughter's place, how would i feel.

How would i feel as a daughter when i know that my dad would be permanently disable. How would i react to my daily life when i know i wont see my father everyday at home.
How would i live each day when i know and have to accept the fact that sooner or later my dad is gonna leave us soon.
How would i smile to him when i know only tears would roll down when i see him

Hundreds of questions flooded my head. And i just cant stop thinking how i should be grateful to God.

Sickness come and you will never know how far it will strike you.

Caring for patients who are diagnoised with Cancer are never easy. In a moment when they are just admitted, you see them healthy and smiling. But the moment the cancer progresses, i swear. Its disheartening to see such cases.

I just can pray to God, pls give the strength to his wife and his beautiful daughters. Honestly, i cant imagine myself in their places. While I am typing this, i am getting a little emotional myself.

May God give you the courage my dear patient.

:'(

PPI oh PPI..

Ok. At last, i got to write down the schedules for my school. I started 3rd semester.
But but, i wanna skin alive the person who scheduled PPI lecture on 4th,5th and 6th December. :(((( I will be in Negeri Sembilan for my uncle's wedding. How.. And i heard that PPI is one of the tough subject.. I freaking dont want to miss those lectures!
Seriously. Macam mane seh.

Concert 'Bagaikan Sakti' M.Nasir and Siti Nurhaliza'

tralalalala.. i keyed in my annual leave already.. 1 week! woohoo.. starting from 30th November.. keying in annual leave, i dont need my ward manager to remind me.. Biase la kan. Part part ambik leave ni, tak payah di suruh. Automatic gear gitu. hehe...

I am having back pain which is kinda of killing me today. Imagine, bending down while showing the student the surgical drain, my back aches.Not really the ache, but the pain radiates. :S Ape kah nasib tun fatimah modern ni. You guys experience back pain? so, what did you do? Sapu minyak senyonyong? :P

My 3rd sister Shafiqah officially ended her A-Levels examination today. Same goes to my 2nd sister, Shameera who is in NTU, ended hers too.. So my house, when i came back, was like in a party mood. Not really. But you can see their smiling faces.


picture:credits to esplanade
So so, i am going to Concert M.Nasir and Siti Nurhaliza! Jangan jealous! With Liyana and her mum, Siti Nadhirah and my sister. We bought the 90 bucks tickets. 2nd level. Anyone else going? Excited nye. I am more excited of hearing M.Nasir singing. And seeing Siti Nurhaliza live. Maklumlah. Saya ni jakun sikit. M.Nasir is really someone whom i look forward to. He is just that very brilliant Singaporean who gets to enter Malaysia's music industry. He truly deserves that as he can really make good songs with meaningful lyrics. Sifu la katakan..! he deserves that title..

ok, Karaoke session with my cousins were cancelled. Initially it's tomorrow and was suppose to be after my work. Meeting up at 5pm. Tapi takkan nak terpekek terlolong, nyanyi lagu amy search or Siti Nurhaiza mase Maghrib..:p So we decided to post pone it..

I made my first 'hand made 'meat ball you. Jangan marah kalau tak dapat rase. Memang tak patut pun korang rase coz its tasteless.. hehe.... But edible. But to me, its nice.

K. I am going to bed. Tomorrow working in morning shift. Selamat beradu my friends. See ya!

you want to sponsor for my plastic surgery isit? :PPPP

i am tired... honestly, at times, i just want to go for annual leave few days every month can? ok.. i need to be an optimistic lady..

my ward managers said, i need to smile more often because it seems that i am potraying problematic face.. ok.. if i have the guts, i will answer them this..
' give me money so that i can go plastic surgery to undergo a surgery to maintain that smiley face'... hehehehe.. its just me. My face cant be changed. I will laugh onloy when the time is appropriate. Smile when needed.. I guess, they just dont know the real Nadeera.. Like i care.. :P

pls Sunday.. Come faster.. c'mon Nadeera. One more day to work and its your rest day.. A week more and its your leave.. Few days more to go, and its your karaoke session with your cousins... ok, i just got to hang in there.. :))

i am your preceptor? kwang kwang kwang..

ok ok.. this is no joke ok.. i am already a preceptor to one of a student.. I thought the Ngee Ann poly student was making fun saying i am the preceptor, skali betul la dok.. She is doing PRCP in my ward..HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. i was laughing la.. Ape je.. Ok, the reason why i laugh is because, i am in a confuse mode..

Am i competent?

Kadang kala, aku sendiri terkial-kial mencari diriku di alam kejururawatan ini.Banyak sekali yang masih aku pelajari. Umur 'pengalaman ku' masih ibarat seperti bayi.. pengalaman masih cetek.

ok.. this shows that, i cant stop learning.. Life is all about knowledge.. You agree?

Semalam, aku pergi exercise sampai otot otot semua sengal! Ape tak nye, angkat 10 kg weights dok. Aku tengok pun, aku nak pengsan. Terjun sini, sana. Bikin pull up, bukan nye aku naik, aku terus terjatuh. Si fitness coach tu tengok aku pun nak ketawa. :)) ade ke dia tanye aku, da berape lame aku tak exercise..Aku slumber je...hehehe..
Tapi, apa kan daya.. babats yang degil harus dihapusi.. For you who might not know and by the way, and esp for you my blogger friends, i am no more a fitness first member. I quit Fitness First and join Captain Jonathon.. To lead a healthier life with healthier diet. Insyaallah, I will be leaner.. It feels good although your muscles are aching. I seriously feel energetic being at work. And my dear friends, do consume omega 3.. Its good for your health..

So so,
i am going karaoke with my cousins next Tuesday. Excited nye aku.. Me and my siblings are chosing all our list of songs gitu.. Ape tak nye, tak sabar seh. Lagu yang tak pernah aku ketinggalan untuk mendendangkan, sudah semestinya, Fauziah Latiff.. 'setia ku korbankan'. Jangan marah, i peminat kak Gee you.. Lagi lagi for those who have watched, ' Gelora di hati sara', she have started her filiming for 'GELORA DI HATI SARA 2'. Tak percaya, you can visit her facebook..
Oh ya.. And takkan ku lupekan menyanyi lagu kakakku OGY, :)), my aunty Saloma,my pakcik PRamlee, Makcik angkat aku Hetty Koes Endang and Shiela Majid. chey de bab gitu.. the singers that i idolise..

Ok.. i think i better get to the toilet and wash up.. you guys have a fun day.. whee! i cant wait for Sunday oh sandy.. its my off!
PS:everyday, i cant help but saying Alhamdulillah.. Thank you ALLAH.. :))

Still dreaming of going Kuala Lumpur this 1 December for the theater... Have a good day MY FRIENDS.. Do leave your views and comments.. Jangan diam diam lepu.. Dont stay quiet. Let me hear you by leaving me comments..

2012... if you gonna ask me how is the movie.. let me rate it 3/5. Kenapa? Because it simply means the end of the world, but they survived. Merepek la can. Tapi i know. This is just a movie.. I went out with Aisyah and we were just talking about too many things. So, let me bentangkan my views on that movie..

Firstly, i cant imagine the views and pictures of the end of the world was just like how 'sang' director potrayed in the movie itself.. its so vast of how he could think till that way. Building spaceship would make you escape from God.. Kwang kwang kwang.. Ok film critics.. relax one corner.. i am just simply saying my views.. But nevertheless, the graphics, crews were awesome in the movie itself..

I know we have many views from different religion. But simply all religion believes in the end of the world. I guess.. Akan ditiupkan lah sangkakala. Dan semua manusia, binatang. Segala yang hidup akan mati serta merta.. ook. I wont continue here. Because its kinda of scary to talk about the end of the world you know.. Bulu roma semua berdiri..

Traalalalalaa. Today is Monday.. :( And i will be working 8 days straight before my off.. But let me look forward. Its Sunday and i will be with my family..

Apa pun, i hope you guys have fun working, studying, dating or whatever. May God bless you.. :))) To my Malay friends, Tun Fatimah Modern berundur diri.. Ampun tuanku..

Mama oh mama.. Papa oh Papa..izinkan anakanda!

i am so dying to goto ISTANA BUDAYA on December can! Pementasan directed by Erma Fatimah is going to be shown!'Teater Natrah'.. I am so excited. I've missed the 'CUCI pementasan' :( And i dont want to miss this! Ok. I had some sweet talk session with my mum. Dengan ayahanda, belum lagi.. hehe... Oh God! Pls.. I dont know whether both my parents allow me. BUT I WANT! If only Kuala Lumpur is somewhere in Orchard Road ke, ok jugak. Takla aku susah-susah nak mintak permission.. hehe.Since its out of Singapore, i have to.. Any Malay Theater lover wants to join me? At least i have companion.. I already ask Nadhirah. I hope she is 'on' with it..

I think you all must be thinking, why I didnt watch 'impact maksimal the musical' when they were in Singapore. That is an exception. I dont really fancy it..

i am back in action. For language wise, I will be using mixture of Malay language and English. Kalau you want me to be speaking london all the way, let be frank, i am not good expressing myself in English.. Malay language is still my love..


It feel so good to be back in action. to be known as blogger again seh.. So, HOW HAVE YOU BEEN MY KEKAWANS! chey, aku cakap macam banyak fans gitu.. padahal2. hehe.. ok.. takpe ar, give me the chance of feeling feeling sikit..

Yasterday if you guys saw my facebook statues, I am suppose to go to 4 places. Ang Mo Kio, Esplanade, East Coast and last MountBatten Square...But ended up going only three places. :( Besok pagi jugak chek sudah janji akan menuju ke Mountbatten square.. ok ok. Back to my day semalam(yesterday), i had fun snapping pictures here and there. Feeling feeling as a tourist gitu. We even ask an aunty where is the nearest McDonalds. Ok takpe. Korang jangan confuse. Biar i start cerite from the beginning..

An's and mine journey began. The funny part was, when we were beginning our session, An Nur began to be resah gelisah. Why. He cant remember whether did he brought his battery ke tak. i told him, if he doesnt bring, its gonna be the JOKE of the day! HEHEHE.. but no la. He did bring..

Walk around and we reached the CBD area there.. Skali gerimis mengundang da.. then become raining cats and dogs. So, quickly we decided to walk in those buildings that we dont really know. But i think he knows better than me la.. I am not the bandar girl you see. name nye aku orang Singapore.. ya. so we placed our camera in the bag and started walking here and there. And walking in the rain. Lucky the camera was protected. We were kinda of disappointed with mr weather. Da la aku da semangat nak ambik gambar, tup tup hujan lebat. tak ke sedih nye aku. Jalan punye jalan, An Nur decided to ask an aunty where is the MCDONALDS. I think she must be thinking that we are some tourist la.. Gossip here gossip there.. ah.. you people dont think the other way ok.. Kite berbual pasal photography dah.. kasi suspense sikit kat korang..




Ok.. at last we walked from the CBD area to Chinatown. You guys can check out our pictures in our facebook. Kasi la comment ye.. Suke ke tak. Suke cakap. Tak suke, diam je.. hehe.. kidding. i took some decent shots. Which i am trying to improve especially on my creativity side and composition and blah blah.. An Nur loves my 50mm,1.8lens.. kwang kwang. Baik kau pergi get it soon An!

Then i headed to Lavender. mYSELF, Dawn, Aisyah, Syahidah and Rose heading to east coast park.. Thanks eh korang. i dont know they have plans of cycling and i wore white pants. Dawn was with us only about an hour. Sitting by the seaside and merepeking dekat McDonalds. Biase la ye. Gossip gossip pasal kerje sudah semestinye..
So after that, Dawn went back for dinner with family.

And there left the 4 of us. Ape lagi. Menggila anak dara ni semua.. Naik Bicycle. And roller blade.. I tried roller blading using Aisyah's rented blade. But thanks eh, aku jatuh macam nangka busuk you! tu nanti hang semua le la nampak gambar aku terjatuh..Tapi i tetap maintain rambut curly i ok.. For pictures wise, do see my facebook album for more kk!



Lain kali ape lagi, plan ye korang.. :P


Do keep in touch.. i am off to be in youtube. i hearts youtube! :))) going to watch film 'Siti Muslihat'